Finding What It Really Means to Seek Jesus' Face

Given the title, I'm sure that I am only going to touch on one way to do this. But its not so much about my method as it is about the difference it is making in my life. It's HUGE. It's new so I've only seen a difference being made this week in a select part of my life, but I already know it will cause me to walk in a totally different direction: finding my everything in Jesus instead of in my circumstances relative to Jesus.

Does that makes sense? Not yet? Well, thats because I haven't written about it yet! wink wink.


One of my prayers these last 6-7months has been

"Lord let me find myself independent from others and more dependent on You."

I crave to find what God has for me and I don't want it to be restricted to the options that are already around me. There are so many people around me doing such awesome things; its SO EASY to feel passion for what they're doing and want to join in! I mean, why not?! But I really want to know what God has for me. I want to say yes to what God is calling me to instead jumping in on what others are doing. I've pretty much been like this all my life - doing my own thing or at least doing life in my own way. So I know y'all aren't exactly surprised by what I'm saying

Fun in the Sun and God's Grace

This week was a doosey. Several meetings, ministry times and of course getting lots of work done.

There are many many things I could say about the changes in my life that made today so significantly better. I'll mention structure a bit and stressing out when I don't have structure on the weekends. But its more than that. God has been showing me that if I seek Him for help He will help me. I had tried different ways to find some R&R on the weekends and I was doing a miserable job at it. Sounds funny - most people don't have to try so hard to enjoy a weekend. But, if you know me well you know how pragmatic and certain I am about things. Letting go completely doesn't work because then I worry about what needs to get done. And trying to do it all so I can rest afterward doesn't either; the little tasks in life are never done.

I started off my day with a run. I rediscovered, again, how much I enjoy and actually need to exercise. I think today was the first Saturday that I didn't stress about plans, errands and chores or what to do and who to try to meet up with. My weekdays are so full and then I get to my weekend and freak out a bit at the complete lack of structure. But this morning's 35 minute run around the gravel roads up in the junkyard was just what my body needed to stave off stress and