Well folks, I am "home home" which for college students or any of us that find homes in multiple places, this means our hometown.
Traveling from Greece to Kona, HI was messy, the messiest travel I have ever had! LONG story short we were almost a day early to the airport, when we got to the airport on the proper day our flight was delayed 6 hours due to company striking, we were rebooked through Frankfurt before even leaving Athens, then re-rebooked once in Frankfurt to Washington, DC and then we had a final layover in SF. This turned up wonderful because my dear friend Samantha rushed me when we got to where two other teams were also awaiting the same last leg flight to Kona. So that was the best 9 hours in the middle of the night I have ever spent in an airport for sure. It was so great to see about 15 other friends from school!
I have had amazing conversations with friends back on campus and have done so much processing. I cannot believe how much learning I have done over the last 6 months about myself, my God, and this life. THANK YOU for being part of this journey!
I would like to start writing blogs with topical reflections just so I can further understand myself but I always love to share what I learn with friends!
I have appreciated so much about coming home. I think my favorite part of traveling, of being away, is coming home! It is almost silly the details that I appreciate:
Flushable toilet paper, couches, carpet, MY BED, my room and all it eccentricities, my dogs, a refrigerator I can snack from, my car, my parents of course and my siblings, family in general lets say, the familiar and comforting things. Country music and Christian radio, my full wardrobe instead of the limited-suitcase edition, my shower, having more than one room to roam through/space, valley sunsets, salted butter, Costco, Panda Express, In-N-Out, Horchata and Mexican food. I could list a lot more things. I'll come back later perhaps.
My biggest question in my mind right now is, "Did the last six months really happen?" Because all of a sudden I am back home and it feels like I never left. My family is the same and my friends are the same, except that one moved to South Korea, no big deal. But really, what defines time and change? It is so relative. So I will turn to look at what marks this change in my life.
(These will probably become more topical and expanded in later entries)
DEFENDED: I no longer need to defend myself. Honestly, I am tired of making sure people like me, trying to ensure that things will come into place wether for my own fate or feeling like I need to try to perform the things that God already says will be.
FATHERS LOVE: I really do believe in God's love for me like that of a Father. You know, the kind where he comes into your room the day after you get home and just sighs that heavy, reassured sigh that I am home and safe in bed (even if it is midday). The kind of Father's love that says I love you like the sea loves the shore. The kind of love that really wants you to be happy. Not because Christian's are on Prosak and Jesus makes your life peachy-keen happy, but that despite the things in life that are rough, God really wants the very best for you. Not second best, not an alternative. And why wouldn't I want the best for myself?
KNOWLEDGE: There is a significant thing to recognize for me and all those that enjoy the pursuit of understanding: these things are futile and what is wisdom if you know not the will of God? Just like I am journaling as one that processes things out loud (or on paper...err..my screen) to seek understanding, Jesus asked me one day if I would instead pursue Him the way I pursue full understanding of my own thought-life.
PERFECTION: I have recognized how much pride is in perfectionism and how God just never asked for such a performance. The Lord asks a lot of us, you might think, but really if your first step forward i truly rooted, and I mean think about getting low here, the base of your intentions-if it is out of love how can you go wrong?
Agh, so much more to be shared!! For now though, this is all. It is late and I need sleep!
XOXO Bee
Traveling from Greece to Kona, HI was messy, the messiest travel I have ever had! LONG story short we were almost a day early to the airport, when we got to the airport on the proper day our flight was delayed 6 hours due to company striking, we were rebooked through Frankfurt before even leaving Athens, then re-rebooked once in Frankfurt to Washington, DC and then we had a final layover in SF. This turned up wonderful because my dear friend Samantha rushed me when we got to where two other teams were also awaiting the same last leg flight to Kona. So that was the best 9 hours in the middle of the night I have ever spent in an airport for sure. It was so great to see about 15 other friends from school!
I have had amazing conversations with friends back on campus and have done so much processing. I cannot believe how much learning I have done over the last 6 months about myself, my God, and this life. THANK YOU for being part of this journey!
I would like to start writing blogs with topical reflections just so I can further understand myself but I always love to share what I learn with friends!
I have appreciated so much about coming home. I think my favorite part of traveling, of being away, is coming home! It is almost silly the details that I appreciate:
Flushable toilet paper, couches, carpet, MY BED, my room and all it eccentricities, my dogs, a refrigerator I can snack from, my car, my parents of course and my siblings, family in general lets say, the familiar and comforting things. Country music and Christian radio, my full wardrobe instead of the limited-suitcase edition, my shower, having more than one room to roam through/space, valley sunsets, salted butter, Costco, Panda Express, In-N-Out, Horchata and Mexican food. I could list a lot more things. I'll come back later perhaps.
My biggest question in my mind right now is, "Did the last six months really happen?" Because all of a sudden I am back home and it feels like I never left. My family is the same and my friends are the same, except that one moved to South Korea, no big deal. But really, what defines time and change? It is so relative. So I will turn to look at what marks this change in my life.
(These will probably become more topical and expanded in later entries)
DEFENDED: I no longer need to defend myself. Honestly, I am tired of making sure people like me, trying to ensure that things will come into place wether for my own fate or feeling like I need to try to perform the things that God already says will be.
FATHERS LOVE: I really do believe in God's love for me like that of a Father. You know, the kind where he comes into your room the day after you get home and just sighs that heavy, reassured sigh that I am home and safe in bed (even if it is midday). The kind of Father's love that says I love you like the sea loves the shore. The kind of love that really wants you to be happy. Not because Christian's are on Prosak and Jesus makes your life peachy-keen happy, but that despite the things in life that are rough, God really wants the very best for you. Not second best, not an alternative. And why wouldn't I want the best for myself?
KNOWLEDGE: There is a significant thing to recognize for me and all those that enjoy the pursuit of understanding: these things are futile and what is wisdom if you know not the will of God? Just like I am journaling as one that processes things out loud (or on paper...err..my screen) to seek understanding, Jesus asked me one day if I would instead pursue Him the way I pursue full understanding of my own thought-life.
PERFECTION: I have recognized how much pride is in perfectionism and how God just never asked for such a performance. The Lord asks a lot of us, you might think, but really if your first step forward i truly rooted, and I mean think about getting low here, the base of your intentions-if it is out of love how can you go wrong?
Agh, so much more to be shared!! For now though, this is all. It is late and I need sleep!
XOXO Bee
